Committed for life

He was meant to be angry. He was meant to be ridiculously distant from me. How can I not blame myself when this guy never once showed any disgust towards me? I remember falling a thousand times, but never in my life has anyone stayed up late after a long workday just because I was hurting. He stayed awake all night just because I had a 100-degree fever. I don't even consider that a fever. How can I hate a guy who showed up at my college just because he found out I was being bullied? He was supposed to hate me. I've fallen for him, and I have no idea if he feels the same way. What if he's just being a good husband because of his parents?